Back at the
beginning of the millennium I was trying to discern if I had a call to the
ordained priesthood. I thought that it would be great to have a “Road
to Damascus” experience i.e., hearing a voice from heaven perhaps with even a
heavenly light show to make sure I was paying attention. However, I can say that I did not receive a
message in any way that was like that. In
the end I decided that the only way to test out a calling was to make a commitment
to the journey to ordination. Talking to
fellow students during my years at Huron College, I discovered that no one had
that kind of a message either. Looking back
I think that I am grateful not to have gone through what Paul experience on
that road including being knocked off my mode of transportation and having
scales cover my eyes for three days.
I did receive
affirmation of my decision in many ways but not specifically in a Road to
Damascus way. God does speak to us in
many different ways which are not necessarily as dramatic or as clear as what
Paul experienced. One experience I had
which I believe affirmed my decision occurred just after I had an interview
with the Dean of Theology, John Chapman (now Bishop of Ottawa) as part of the process
to enter the M. Div. program. The interview
went well and when it was finished I got into my car to drive home. The car radio was tuned to CBC as usual and
the program involved an interview with three clergy who had been ordained later
in life. This certainly fit my experience
as I was in my early fifties at the time.
This experiences
was for me synchronistic—a term coined by Carl Jung. Synchronicity is, simply put, a significant
coincidence. They can be easily dismissed by skeptics as
mere coincidence and of no significance other than pure chance. However, I understood it as a pointer from
the divine that I was on the right course.
By itself it would not be enough to make a serious life-changing decision
in life. However, it was one indication that
I should continue on this new path and see other signs God might send me.
I believe and
have faith that God is speaking to us in many different ways today as God always
has. However, we have not been taught to
recognize them. Our culture does not
generally recognize many of these ways.
We need to relearn as a culture and individuals how God does speak to us
and how to interpret what might be called the language of God. One way which I particularly favour is the
language of dreams. Dreams have been
called “God’s forgotten language”—a phrase of John Sanford’s, an Episcopal
priest and Jungian Analyst and also a title of his very good introduction to
dream work.
There are
many other ways such as Contemplative Prayer, Lectio Divina (Holy Listening), and
walking the Labyrinth. My approach to Spiritual
Direction is to help directees to identify how God is speaking to them and to help
them more fully experience and understand how God is working in their lives. We
are each unique children of God and so we are each more receptive to different way
in which God is speaking to us. For
instance, my wife Lorna, whose primary way of receiving information is through the
five senses, uses that outer input in her inner world. She is an ISTJ on the Myers Briggs Type Scale
i.e. Introverted, Sensing, Thinking, Judging.
I, on the
other hand, am not as in tune with the outer world as many who know me will
attest—especially Lorna. My
primary way of receiving information is by intuition, being an INFJ on the Myers
Briggs Type Scale i.e. Introverted, Intuitive, Feeling, Judging. This difference means that we are naturally oriented
differently to how God is speaking to us.
For instance, Lorna finds walking the Labyrinth to be very meaningful as
a form of walking prayer. The experience
of walking the labyrinth does not resonate with me to the same extent. Rather I find Centering Prayer to be a very
meaningful way.
This does
not mean that we do not use both forms as a part of our spiritual practices. I do walk the Labyrinth and Lorna does Centering
Prayer. However, it is not the preferred
method in each case. We both pay
attention to our dreams as a way of see if our lives on the course God intends
for us. We both keep dream journals and
try to understand the meaning of our dreams or as Lorna says, “don’t you mean
the message”?
The most
important thing in all this is to be open to how God is speaking to you and pay
attention to the things that you believe God is saying. This is not always clear and it can be
helpful to have someone to help you in that journey such as a clergy person,
spiritual director or counsellor. Blessings,
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